If your current state is more about fixing yourself than loving yourself, consider pursuing these resources. I have no doubt they will impact your sense of self worth.
This is your inner compass.
The steady, strong, sometimes quiet voice that knows exactly where you're from and where you're going. Even if you can't hear it, it's there. Even if you tuned it out long ago, it's still there.
Waiting to connect with you.
Get clear on how you want to feel in your life.
What if you did this first, and then laid out your intentions, plans, goals? With this kind of clarity, decisions will be easier to make. You'll be more optimistic, more open hearted.
More living. More loving. Less angst.